well, i'm back this time to work & i guess it does feel different in a way... there's this certainty that i'm actually staying in this country for the next few years at least. it felt really different when i was here the last few times for studies + holidays.. there was always this sense of urgency. urgency to keep on doing things, with the fear that i wouldn't be able to do them before i left. but now, there's just no hurry.. it is a lot more enjoyable cause i can do things at my own pace. as w.h davies said: "What is life if full of care, if we have no time to stop & stare". i get to appreciate seoul a whole lot more now. n not just for the shopping itself.
headed down to the office this morning to sign some documents & was pleasantly surprised by the lovely office building & its working environment. i had expected something close to that of HL building, or perhaps DBS tower at best, but the posh-ness of the office was definitely more than what i had expected. :) will try to put up pictures of the interior soon! managed to snap a picture of the exterior though.. (will post up pictures once i get them!) was supposed to go for an impromptu lunch with my whole dept, but couldnt' as becky was with me! i suspect that they were all waiting for me to go downstairs... *whoops* but i'll still have my 'welcome' lunch when i start work on the 1st day. :) will be going for orientation on the 3rd & 4th before starting work officially on the 5th!
2010년 12월 23일 목요일
2010년 12월 15일 수요일
reflections
and so, as 2010 is drawing to a close, its always apt to look back upon the year & see how things have turned out.
truly, this was the year of Restful Increase. managed to achieve 2 of my aims & i hope to achieve the remaining 3 next year! the year has passed by at a considerably constant pace. it was also a year of change. for me at least. stepping out of my comfort zone into something familiar, but yet unknown. i wouldn't say that my past 2 years in a***t has been all that bad. it did allow me a chance to grow & see the good & not so good sides of people. but of course, the good was more than the bad. made many new friends, friends whom i hope i'll still keep in contact with for many years to come. and let this be the foreshadowing of more good things to come! ^^
but of course, life always has its ups & downs. its how you take the downs that matter the most. there were times when i thought that it was almost impossible, but God always came through miraculously, meeting ALL my personal deadlines & criteria. seriously, i was almost going to give up, but He came through. :)
2011 is gonna be an even better year ahead & i can't wait to see what He has in store for me! cause i know that it is & it will be good! ^^
truly, this was the year of Restful Increase. managed to achieve 2 of my aims & i hope to achieve the remaining 3 next year! the year has passed by at a considerably constant pace. it was also a year of change. for me at least. stepping out of my comfort zone into something familiar, but yet unknown. i wouldn't say that my past 2 years in a***t has been all that bad. it did allow me a chance to grow & see the good & not so good sides of people. but of course, the good was more than the bad. made many new friends, friends whom i hope i'll still keep in contact with for many years to come. and let this be the foreshadowing of more good things to come! ^^
but of course, life always has its ups & downs. its how you take the downs that matter the most. there were times when i thought that it was almost impossible, but God always came through miraculously, meeting ALL my personal deadlines & criteria. seriously, i was almost going to give up, but He came through. :)
2011 is gonna be an even better year ahead & i can't wait to see what He has in store for me! cause i know that it is & it will be good! ^^
2010년 12월 13일 월요일
my new workplace!
unfortunately, this was the best picture that i could find! will update more soon!!! :D
2010년 12월 8일 수요일
2010년 12월 2일 목요일
CFA's in 2 days time!
2 more days to the BIG DAY!
sigh.
i can't wait for it to be over. but yet, i don't feel really prepared for the exam. >_<
there's just so much going on right now that i can't really focus on the task at hand.
have been listening to Christmas Carols to get myself in the Christmas mood. hehe. can't wait for HK/Seoul!
sigh.
i can't wait for it to be over. but yet, i don't feel really prepared for the exam. >_<
there's just so much going on right now that i can't really focus on the task at hand.
have been listening to Christmas Carols to get myself in the Christmas mood. hehe. can't wait for HK/Seoul!
2010년 11월 12일 금요일
abstain: to restrain oneself from doing something
i was supposed to abstain from shopping. but well. a lunchtime trip to IMM left me $20 poorer & 2 pairs of shorts richer. but cute shorts they are! with heart prints on them and all. there was even a promotion going on! 2 pairs for $20!
ok. this is not making much sense. i just sound like i'm trying to convince myself that what i did was right. hah.
i can't wait for 530.
ok. this is not making much sense. i just sound like i'm trying to convince myself that what i did was right. hah.
i can't wait for 530.
2010년 11월 9일 화요일
2010년 10월 27일 수요일
moving on...
well... 1st things 1st.
Thank God that He answered all my prayers & more! :)
will just have to get through my exams on the 5th of Dec & its time to pack after that!
handling visa matters/studies is definitely not easy!
let's just say that sth has to take a backseat for now & its definitely not any of the 2 above! ;)
Thank God that He answered all my prayers & more! :)
will just have to get through my exams on the 5th of Dec & its time to pack after that!
handling visa matters/studies is definitely not easy!
let's just say that sth has to take a backseat for now & its definitely not any of the 2 above! ;)
2010년 10월 9일 토요일
tick tock.. tick tock..
and so, with the exams looming in just 2 months time, i so need to start intensive revision. weekends make for good studying time, though albeit short. would love to put in more hours during the weekdays, but somehow, work + study just doesn't cut it for me. sigh..
many of my best buds have moved on, at a much faster pace than me.. though i did start earlier. i suppose its a case of slow & steady wins the race. hopefully my turn will come soon! at the time that i want it to come. am faced with 2 very attractive yet different choices & i've no idea which one i should choose. part of me just wants God to close doors that should be closed & open those that should be opened. but the other side of me wants to have choices.. well, just to say that i've got a choice. human nature is as such.
soon soon.. i can feel it.. i just have to be patient.. n i do need to learn patience. for it is not one of my best virtues.
many of my best buds have moved on, at a much faster pace than me.. though i did start earlier. i suppose its a case of slow & steady wins the race. hopefully my turn will come soon! at the time that i want it to come. am faced with 2 very attractive yet different choices & i've no idea which one i should choose. part of me just wants God to close doors that should be closed & open those that should be opened. but the other side of me wants to have choices.. well, just to say that i've got a choice. human nature is as such.
soon soon.. i can feel it.. i just have to be patient.. n i do need to learn patience. for it is not one of my best virtues.
2010년 9월 30일 목요일
prison break
한국이 넘 그립다
여유가 있는 시대 넘 그립다
다시 돌어갈 수 있을 까?
도망하고 싶다
떠나고 싶다는 말이다
인생 왜 그렇게 복잡하는 냐?
도대체 왜?!
ㅠㅜㅠㅜㅠㅜ
2010년 9월 29일 수요일
2010년 9월 25일 토요일
2010년 9월 24일 금요일
ambivalence
so, nothing's really been confirmed yet. i would like to say that it has, but nope, nothing's been set in stone. well, the best is yet to be. n i trust that it'll be so! do have an appt set up next week, though its something that i'm not really interested in, can't hurt to try i suppose.
have not really been in the mood to work for quite sometime now. although i haven't really been working my ass off. haha. i suppose this is what happens once you get past the stage of not caring. some ppl just seem very motivated. too motivated i would say. but whatever for? it has gone beyond my comprehension.
would like to clear the exams & hopefully get a nice relaxing holiday (read: winter holiday) before i start the next phase in somewhere great!
meanwhile, as always, its time to countdown to the weekend...
have not really been in the mood to work for quite sometime now. although i haven't really been working my ass off. haha. i suppose this is what happens once you get past the stage of not caring. some ppl just seem very motivated. too motivated i would say. but whatever for? it has gone beyond my comprehension.
would like to clear the exams & hopefully get a nice relaxing holiday (read: winter holiday) before i start the next phase in somewhere great!
meanwhile, as always, its time to countdown to the weekend...
2010년 9월 13일 월요일
does this mean i get to go?
would be nice if everything fell into place just how i want it to.. :)
that tingly feeling of excitement, but yet a slight fear mixed with trepidation.. the potential in the what ifs & what could have beens..
a new start to everything in the new year.
sounds pretty good to me alright. :)
we shall see..
i'm quite confident that the weeks ahead are gonna be very exciting indeed.
that tingly feeling of excitement, but yet a slight fear mixed with trepidation.. the potential in the what ifs & what could have beens..
a new start to everything in the new year.
sounds pretty good to me alright. :)
we shall see..
i'm quite confident that the weeks ahead are gonna be very exciting indeed.
2010년 8월 23일 월요일
2010년 8월 21일 토요일
the leaves are fallin'
(i spy a ray of hope peeking through those falling leaves)
am all hyped up about fall (though we don't get it here in sunny singapore), but i do so love the cool breeze and falling leaves that autumn brings. that and the lovely muted hues on clothes too.
just as with the changing of seasons, perhaps, just perhaps, my turn may come soon...
2010년 8월 17일 화요일
patience...
i'm someone who can't stand ppl who are slow. i guess that's one of the things i need to learn. Patience.
like if i'm walking behind someone who's walking reaaaaaally slowly, i feel like pushing them away and rushing on ahead. i do things really quickly. be it walking or work. i like to get things over n done with so that i can have more time for whatever i enjoy doing.
but i guess there are certain things that can't be rushed and i suppose i'll just have to wait it out and see.
there are times like these when 1 day literally seems like a 1000 years. and no, i don't mean heaven.
*crossing fingers & praying that my turn will come soon*
like if i'm walking behind someone who's walking reaaaaaally slowly, i feel like pushing them away and rushing on ahead. i do things really quickly. be it walking or work. i like to get things over n done with so that i can have more time for whatever i enjoy doing.
but i guess there are certain things that can't be rushed and i suppose i'll just have to wait it out and see.
there are times like these when 1 day literally seems like a 1000 years. and no, i don't mean heaven.
*crossing fingers & praying that my turn will come soon*
2010년 7월 28일 수요일
polyvore
i just discovered a new gem of a site, Polyvore! Basically, its a site that functions somewhat like your online wardrobe, allowing you to 'snip' pictures of clothes/accessories that you fancy from various websites and compile them into a mini collage!
this is what i've done for myself. looks a like amateurish i admit, but its really fun! hehe. try it out! ^^
Juicy Couture - Multi Chain W/Feather Bracelet (Multi) - Jewelry
$128 - zappos.com
More Juicy Couture bracelets »
$128 - zappos.com
More Juicy Couture bracelets »
French Roses Marble Coasters :: Coasters :: Tabletop and Linens ::...
$11 - elizabethsembellishments.com
$11 - elizabethsembellishments.com
this is what i've done for myself. looks a like amateurish i admit, but its really fun! hehe. try it out! ^^
2010년 7월 20일 화요일
2010년 7월 15일 목요일
to dream or not to dream
You wake up everyday and work from Monday to Friday, and often, Saturday too. If you finish work early, you and your partner go to your parents’ place for dinner and see your child for a few hours. If you work late, you buy a packet of char kway teow from the hawker centre but eat it at home because it’s too warm to eat there. You’re not crazy about the job but you know that if you keep at it, you can afford a car in 3 years’ time, and in 5 years’ time, buy a condo close to the primary school you want to send your kid to. Your conversations with people are either for the purpose of networking, work, or for familial obligations you cannot avoid. On weekends, you play golf with your friends at your country club or watch a movie with your partner. Once a year, you go on a ten day vacation to New York, London, or Paris, and when your children are big enough, Disneyland.
Alternatively, you wake up and you have no idea what is going to happen today, tomorrow, 6 months or a year later. Ironically, because of this uncertainty, all possibilities exist for you. You can be the Prime Minister of Singapore, you can make a movie, you can cook a meal you have never cooked before, eat at a place you have never eaten before, you can color your hair red, you can skip instead of walk, you can volunteer at the school you have always wanted to volunteer at, you can write a book, or you can have a baby even though you don’t have a maid. You have conversations with people who set your heart palpitating and your mind on fire. Your weekday is not so different from your weekend because everyday you are thinking, creating, and more important, imagining.
Most of us recognize the first story and its pursuit of the 5 Cs of “cash, condo, car, country club, credit card.” It is the Plan, which imposes a conclusion on you, and you work in order to make all the pieces fit. A bus stop advertisement I saw recently said it best: “We spend all our youth chasing money, and when we attain it, we spend all our money chasing youth.”
A Dream, on the other hand, carries you on its wings to worlds that your heart and mind have never known.
extracted from Popagandhi
i wonder, how many of us are actually brave enough to chase after the 2nd option. especially in this pragmatic society that is Singapore.
2010년 7월 13일 화요일
[27/12/09] Jisan Forest Ski Resort 지산 리조트
ok.. here's a v v v v backdated post! my first ever ski trip! ^^
we were supposed to go to Kongjinam instead of Jisan. tried calling Kongjinam the night before we were supposed to depart, but to no avail. sooo, we decided to take a gamble & head to Kangnam to wait for the bus. However, we were unable to find the bus stop from which we were supposed to take the bus.. >_<
thank God i spotted the shuttle bus for Jisan - 지산 리조트 and since it wasn't full, the bus driver allowed us on. :) and so, that's how my 1st ever eventful ski trip started off. it took us ard 1 hr to get to the ski resort since it was outside of seoul. however, i wasn't feeling too gd that day. i suspect it was due to the super duper oily food that i had been having for the past few days..
the rolling ski slopes of Jisan
so we decided to sign up for lessons since all of us had no experience in skiing, with the exception of LX. thank God she had the Samsung card, which gave us 50% off everything! :P hehe. and so, we proceeded to undergo 2 hrs of training, which i don't think helped that much. haha. i couldn't stop no matter how i tried & i ended up crashing into the orange barrier. screaming at the same time of course.. i couldn't think y no one came over to help me but just stood and stared.. >_<
but of course, i think esther aka KJI was the ultimate! hehe. she ski-ed (if you could call it skiing) down from the 2nd tier of the ski slopes, but couldn't control herself and ended up sliding under the orange barrier into the training area. haha. n she crashed into the 'mini ski travellator' as well.. hahahah.
the training area
LX
KJI
but i have to say, the ski outfits that were loaned to us were really like military uniforms. plus we had our number tags to boot! haah. straight out from boot camp!
JT & myself!
it started snowing halfway thru & it was really fun! hehe. skiing while the snow fell... hehe. didn't take that many pictures cause my camera decided to be temperamental and not behave... >_< i think its time to trade it in for a new model. ho ho .
falling snow
blurry photo of us taken on the way out of jisan!
snow covered bridge
since it was snowing pretty heavily, we decided to leave early cause it was likely that the roads would be congested. and true enough, instead of the 1 hour that it usually takes to get back to seoul, we took almost 3! since we missed the shuttle bus back to seoul, we had to go back via public transport. n that involved us walking in the snow for ard 30 mins out to the bus stop, taking a city bus to the inter city bus terminal, before transferring to the express bus that brought us back to Seoul. on our way back, the bus was really stuffy and hot.. plus we were all bundled up in our winter wear.. unimaginable.. pfttttt. we saw trucks sprinkling salt on the snow so as to increase friction to prevent accidents from happening. n of course, our bus driver drove v v slowly all the way back to Seoul. partly because of safety and partly because of the huge jam on the highway.
but it was a rather memorable trip all in all! but, the next time, i would like to try tobogganing instead. hahaah. i think its much much safer. the skis were rather cumbersome & jutted out in all the wrong places!
we were supposed to go to Kongjinam instead of Jisan. tried calling Kongjinam the night before we were supposed to depart, but to no avail. sooo, we decided to take a gamble & head to Kangnam to wait for the bus. However, we were unable to find the bus stop from which we were supposed to take the bus.. >_<
thank God i spotted the shuttle bus for Jisan - 지산 리조트 and since it wasn't full, the bus driver allowed us on. :) and so, that's how my 1st ever eventful ski trip started off. it took us ard 1 hr to get to the ski resort since it was outside of seoul. however, i wasn't feeling too gd that day. i suspect it was due to the super duper oily food that i had been having for the past few days..
the rolling ski slopes of Jisan
so we decided to sign up for lessons since all of us had no experience in skiing, with the exception of LX. thank God she had the Samsung card, which gave us 50% off everything! :P hehe. and so, we proceeded to undergo 2 hrs of training, which i don't think helped that much. haha. i couldn't stop no matter how i tried & i ended up crashing into the orange barrier. screaming at the same time of course.. i couldn't think y no one came over to help me but just stood and stared.. >_<
but of course, i think esther aka KJI was the ultimate! hehe. she ski-ed (if you could call it skiing) down from the 2nd tier of the ski slopes, but couldn't control herself and ended up sliding under the orange barrier into the training area. haha. n she crashed into the 'mini ski travellator' as well.. hahahah.
the training area
LX
KJI
but i have to say, the ski outfits that were loaned to us were really like military uniforms. plus we had our number tags to boot! haah. straight out from boot camp!
JT & myself!
it started snowing halfway thru & it was really fun! hehe. skiing while the snow fell... hehe. didn't take that many pictures cause my camera decided to be temperamental and not behave... >_< i think its time to trade it in for a new model. ho ho .
falling snow
blurry photo of us taken on the way out of jisan!
snow covered bridge
since it was snowing pretty heavily, we decided to leave early cause it was likely that the roads would be congested. and true enough, instead of the 1 hour that it usually takes to get back to seoul, we took almost 3! since we missed the shuttle bus back to seoul, we had to go back via public transport. n that involved us walking in the snow for ard 30 mins out to the bus stop, taking a city bus to the inter city bus terminal, before transferring to the express bus that brought us back to Seoul. on our way back, the bus was really stuffy and hot.. plus we were all bundled up in our winter wear.. unimaginable.. pfttttt. we saw trucks sprinkling salt on the snow so as to increase friction to prevent accidents from happening. n of course, our bus driver drove v v slowly all the way back to Seoul. partly because of safety and partly because of the huge jam on the highway.
but it was a rather memorable trip all in all! but, the next time, i would like to try tobogganing instead. hahaah. i think its much much safer. the skis were rather cumbersome & jutted out in all the wrong places!
2010년 7월 11일 일요일
the start of something better, i believe...
am finally going for my 1st real interview tomorrow. though its not really sth that i'm THAT interested in, i suppose its a start!! n let it be the start of many more good things to come!
was re-reading some of the entries that kaye & myself posted back in 2008, when we were still in korea, and i realised that we were really happy with the life that we were leading back then. i guess that's y we keep wanting to go back somehow.. i don't know if things will still remain the same, 2 years on, but i would like to believe so. :)
for some reason, i feel more at home in korea than in HK, even though i've lived in both before. perhaps its the air pollution and the practicalness(?) of HK and its people that make me more adverse to living there? i should start exploring other countries soon. n 1st up, will be vietnam! but i don't feel as excited as i felt when i was going to korea/hk. maybe, its still a long way away from the trip for the euphoria to set in? or perhaps its just work. haha. i seem to be using work as an excuse all the time. actually, its the perfect excuse for everything. like how u want to get out of gatherings with people whom you don't really like, u can just say, oh, i'm busy with work. i've a deadline coming up. or if you want to escape those dreaded family gatherings, work is always there for you. its the perfect all encompassing excuse. :)
when can i get out?
was re-reading some of the entries that kaye & myself posted back in 2008, when we were still in korea, and i realised that we were really happy with the life that we were leading back then. i guess that's y we keep wanting to go back somehow.. i don't know if things will still remain the same, 2 years on, but i would like to believe so. :)
for some reason, i feel more at home in korea than in HK, even though i've lived in both before. perhaps its the air pollution and the practicalness(?) of HK and its people that make me more adverse to living there? i should start exploring other countries soon. n 1st up, will be vietnam! but i don't feel as excited as i felt when i was going to korea/hk. maybe, its still a long way away from the trip for the euphoria to set in? or perhaps its just work. haha. i seem to be using work as an excuse all the time. actually, its the perfect excuse for everything. like how u want to get out of gatherings with people whom you don't really like, u can just say, oh, i'm busy with work. i've a deadline coming up. or if you want to escape those dreaded family gatherings, work is always there for you. its the perfect all encompassing excuse. :)
when can i get out?
2010년 7월 5일 월요일
과거, 요즘, 미래...
가끔식 좀 우울할 때 한국에 있었던 시간을 생각이 나..
다른 사람은 듣기 해도 지치겠지만 내 맘이지.. ㅋ
여행을 다시 가고 싶다.
8월초에 게이랑 배트남에 가기로 했어! 원래 일본과 한국에 가려고 했는데 일 떔에 계획 좀 바꿨어. 좀 섭섭했지만...
지난주에 여가치가 싱가폴에 놀러 왔어.. ㅋㅋ. 괜 오랜동안 안 만나거든! 1.5년 쯤?
(여가치의 조카, 여가치, 나)
만나서 넘 반가워.. ㅎㅎㅎ.
경희대에 만나던 친구들.. 요세 어떻게 지나는지 넘 궁금해.. 좀 게으러서 우리 서로 연락 잘 안 하는데.. 몇 명만 아직 연락하고 있어.. 수연,주영(X2), 사치코, 갑철 오빠, 수경 등...
아... 물라 물라...
많은 사람들 나 왜 한국에 일하고 싶냐고... 그냥 아직 어린니까 해외에서 일하고 싶고 다른 문화를 경험할 겸 다른 나라에서 살고 싶은 뿐이야.. ㅎ
단어 많이 까먹었어.. ㅠㅠ. 안 사용해서 그럴 까? 근데 이상하는데 어제 갑철 오빠랑 채팅할 때 나의 한국어 실력이 올라가라고 저번에 보다 더 자연스럽다고 얘기했거든! ㅋㅋㅋ. 좀 자랑하고 싶어.. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ. 그래도 나의 수준이 그렇게 좋지 않아.. ㅠㅠㅠ. 더 잘 하고 싶은데...
CFA위해서 공부해야 돼.. 이제 부터 진짜 진짜 열심 공부해야 겠다.. 12월까지! 화이팅!! ^^
다른 사람은 듣기 해도 지치겠지만 내 맘이지.. ㅋ
여행을 다시 가고 싶다.
8월초에 게이랑 배트남에 가기로 했어! 원래 일본과 한국에 가려고 했는데 일 떔에 계획 좀 바꿨어. 좀 섭섭했지만...
지난주에 여가치가 싱가폴에 놀러 왔어.. ㅋㅋ. 괜 오랜동안 안 만나거든! 1.5년 쯤?
(여가치의 조카, 여가치, 나)
만나서 넘 반가워.. ㅎㅎㅎ.
경희대에 만나던 친구들.. 요세 어떻게 지나는지 넘 궁금해.. 좀 게으러서 우리 서로 연락 잘 안 하는데.. 몇 명만 아직 연락하고 있어.. 수연,주영(X2), 사치코, 갑철 오빠, 수경 등...
아... 물라 물라...
많은 사람들 나 왜 한국에 일하고 싶냐고... 그냥 아직 어린니까 해외에서 일하고 싶고 다른 문화를 경험할 겸 다른 나라에서 살고 싶은 뿐이야.. ㅎ
단어 많이 까먹었어.. ㅠㅠ. 안 사용해서 그럴 까? 근데 이상하는데 어제 갑철 오빠랑 채팅할 때 나의 한국어 실력이 올라가라고 저번에 보다 더 자연스럽다고 얘기했거든! ㅋㅋㅋ. 좀 자랑하고 싶어.. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ. 그래도 나의 수준이 그렇게 좋지 않아.. ㅠㅠㅠ. 더 잘 하고 싶은데...
CFA위해서 공부해야 돼.. 이제 부터 진짜 진짜 열심 공부해야 겠다.. 12월까지! 화이팅!! ^^
2010년 7월 1일 목요일
조권 - 고백하던 날
조권 - 고백하던 날
어떻게 말할까 수백 번 생각하느라
잠을 설쳐서 얼굴도 엉망이고
오늘따라 머리까지 맘에 안 들어
하루종일 안절부절
어느새 너를 만나기 한 시간 전
꽃집에 들러 꽃을 좀 사려는데
장미를 살까 다른 꽃 살까
에라 모르겠다 "아줌마 예쁘게 해 주세요."
오늘은 널 만나면
예쁘다고 말하려 했는데
얼굴 보자마자
"내가 꽃 샀으니까 네가 밥 사!"
어쩜 이런 말만 나와
도대체
멍청한 건지 아님 순진한 건지
이렇게 한심한 말만 튀어 나와
사실 내가 하려 했던 말은 말이야
난 널 사랑해
밤새워
연습했던 말 다 잊어 버리고
멋없이 그냥 건넨 꽃다발에도
밝게 웃어주던 많이 좋아하던
넌 천사야 You're my angel
밥 먹고 이런 저런 얘길 나누며
언제 말할까 기회만 엿보다가
지금 할까 지금이야
사실 나 이젠 아무것도 안 들려
내 맘은 너 아니면
안 된다고 말하려 하는데
둘 다 외로운데 한 번 만나볼래
계속 이런 말만 나와
도대체
멍청한 건지 아님 순진한 건지
이렇게 한심한 말만 튀어 나와
사실 내가 하려 했던 말은 말이야
난 널 사랑해
밤새워
연습했던 말 다 잊어 버리고
멋없이 그냥 건넨 내 고백에도
밝게 웃어 주며 고갤 끄덕여 준
넌 천사야 You're my angel
널 사랑해 널 사랑해
밤새 연습하고 하지 못한 말
널 좋아해 널 사랑해
꼭 해주고 싶던 말
도대체
멍청한 건지 아님 순진한 건지
이렇게 한심한 말만 튀어 나와 (너무 한심해)
사실 내가 하려 했던 말은 말이야
난 널 사랑해 (너를 너무도 사랑해)
밤새워
연습했던 말 다 잊어 버리고
멋없이 그냥 건넨 내 고백에도
밝게 웃어 주며 고갤 끄덕여 준
넌 천사야 You're my angel
You're my angel 내가 더 잘할게
어떻게 말할까 수백 번 생각하느라
잠을 설쳐서 얼굴도 엉망이고
오늘따라 머리까지 맘에 안 들어
하루종일 안절부절
어느새 너를 만나기 한 시간 전
꽃집에 들러 꽃을 좀 사려는데
장미를 살까 다른 꽃 살까
에라 모르겠다 "아줌마 예쁘게 해 주세요."
오늘은 널 만나면
예쁘다고 말하려 했는데
얼굴 보자마자
"내가 꽃 샀으니까 네가 밥 사!"
어쩜 이런 말만 나와
도대체
멍청한 건지 아님 순진한 건지
이렇게 한심한 말만 튀어 나와
사실 내가 하려 했던 말은 말이야
난 널 사랑해
밤새워
연습했던 말 다 잊어 버리고
멋없이 그냥 건넨 꽃다발에도
밝게 웃어주던 많이 좋아하던
넌 천사야 You're my angel
밥 먹고 이런 저런 얘길 나누며
언제 말할까 기회만 엿보다가
지금 할까 지금이야
사실 나 이젠 아무것도 안 들려
내 맘은 너 아니면
안 된다고 말하려 하는데
둘 다 외로운데 한 번 만나볼래
계속 이런 말만 나와
도대체
멍청한 건지 아님 순진한 건지
이렇게 한심한 말만 튀어 나와
사실 내가 하려 했던 말은 말이야
난 널 사랑해
밤새워
연습했던 말 다 잊어 버리고
멋없이 그냥 건넨 내 고백에도
밝게 웃어 주며 고갤 끄덕여 준
넌 천사야 You're my angel
널 사랑해 널 사랑해
밤새 연습하고 하지 못한 말
널 좋아해 널 사랑해
꼭 해주고 싶던 말
도대체
멍청한 건지 아님 순진한 건지
이렇게 한심한 말만 튀어 나와 (너무 한심해)
사실 내가 하려 했던 말은 말이야
난 널 사랑해 (너를 너무도 사랑해)
밤새워
연습했던 말 다 잊어 버리고
멋없이 그냥 건넨 내 고백에도
밝게 웃어 주며 고갤 끄덕여 준
넌 천사야 You're my angel
You're my angel 내가 더 잘할게
2010년 6월 28일 월요일
2010년 6월 3일 목요일
on Singapore..
i came across this post while web surfing and thought that the ideas from this post were so beautifully written that I should share it with you guys. Any attempt on my part to reconstruct it would probably massacre and change the original flavour of the post.
so here goes...
Every once in a while friends and acquaintances, often those who haven’t stepped outside of Changi airport, decide to tell me their views on Singapore. Sometimes, they tell me it is such a beautiful efficiently run city. Some others just can’t believe how people can live in a place that has such a stifling government and care about nothing else, but their materialistic needs.
I don’t usually bother to argue. At the end of the day, its not my home country and my feelings of loyalty are, at best, stretched. But I can’t help but feel that Singapore is misunderstood. Singapore is the quiet girl in the class who gets straight As in the exams, but is never really popular in school because she is such a prude. Yet she tries really really hard to be the cool-kid. Her parents tell her that she should “seriously” have fun! Yet, they tell her that grades are all that really matters. The poor prude girl is really confused. Could anyone have known that beneath the pristine doll-like image, there is a silently troubled child, with a complicated and sullied inside, every bit as human as anyone can be.
People don’t see the real Singapore – the real Singapore doesn’t exist in the tall financial centers or the huge malls or the parliament buildings, where they make us believe democracy has some role to play. Singapore is not limited to the yuppies who aspire to buy the latest Porsche or the Armani-aspiring corporate mogul-wanna-be who couldn’t care less about what happens around them, as long as they get their 5 (or is it more now? )Cs. Thats just what is presented to the outside world. In fact, even many Singaporeans see themselves through those tinted shades.
If you want to see the heart and soul of Singapore, wander not through Millenia walk or Suntec city, but through the narrow roads of China Town or Little India or Arab street, or even the little parks around Bishan or Ang Mo Kio. The fat lady who sells you the Char Kway Teow or the little girl who brings you the ice kacang at the hawker centers, has a story to tell, if only if you had the time to listen. Singapore is not a land of boring, law-abiding people who don’t think and who work and walk like machines – its a place with as much life and emotion as any other, if only you would look beyond the surface.
If the heart of India is in her villages, the heart of Singapore is in her HDB flats. Thats where the dreams are dreamt and tears are wept. If the Singapore government doesn’t hear the collective sigh of the heartlands, they would miss out on reaching out to the real Singapore. And if they don’t let us see the real Singapore, we will all go back with our own false images. If Singapore seems to you like a land straight out of Pleasantville, its only because someone has put a thick filter which blocks out all the colours, somewhere between your eyes and the reality. And you know who that someone is. It is often one’s flaws that makes us human, and thus beautiful. As you desperately try to hide your flaws, you also hide yourself. Singapore, isn’t it about time that you let us see the real you?
The next time someone talks to me about Singapore, I just wish they would talk about not just the concrete buildings or the super clean streets or the democracy that doesn’t seem to be, but something less superficial. Lets talk about the heart of Singapore, shall we?
extracted from Silenteloquence
so here goes...
Every once in a while friends and acquaintances, often those who haven’t stepped outside of Changi airport, decide to tell me their views on Singapore. Sometimes, they tell me it is such a beautiful efficiently run city. Some others just can’t believe how people can live in a place that has such a stifling government and care about nothing else, but their materialistic needs.
I don’t usually bother to argue. At the end of the day, its not my home country and my feelings of loyalty are, at best, stretched. But I can’t help but feel that Singapore is misunderstood. Singapore is the quiet girl in the class who gets straight As in the exams, but is never really popular in school because she is such a prude. Yet she tries really really hard to be the cool-kid. Her parents tell her that she should “seriously” have fun! Yet, they tell her that grades are all that really matters. The poor prude girl is really confused. Could anyone have known that beneath the pristine doll-like image, there is a silently troubled child, with a complicated and sullied inside, every bit as human as anyone can be.
People don’t see the real Singapore – the real Singapore doesn’t exist in the tall financial centers or the huge malls or the parliament buildings, where they make us believe democracy has some role to play. Singapore is not limited to the yuppies who aspire to buy the latest Porsche or the Armani-aspiring corporate mogul-wanna-be who couldn’t care less about what happens around them, as long as they get their 5 (or is it more now? )Cs. Thats just what is presented to the outside world. In fact, even many Singaporeans see themselves through those tinted shades.
If you want to see the heart and soul of Singapore, wander not through Millenia walk or Suntec city, but through the narrow roads of China Town or Little India or Arab street, or even the little parks around Bishan or Ang Mo Kio. The fat lady who sells you the Char Kway Teow or the little girl who brings you the ice kacang at the hawker centers, has a story to tell, if only if you had the time to listen. Singapore is not a land of boring, law-abiding people who don’t think and who work and walk like machines – its a place with as much life and emotion as any other, if only you would look beyond the surface.
If the heart of India is in her villages, the heart of Singapore is in her HDB flats. Thats where the dreams are dreamt and tears are wept. If the Singapore government doesn’t hear the collective sigh of the heartlands, they would miss out on reaching out to the real Singapore. And if they don’t let us see the real Singapore, we will all go back with our own false images. If Singapore seems to you like a land straight out of Pleasantville, its only because someone has put a thick filter which blocks out all the colours, somewhere between your eyes and the reality. And you know who that someone is. It is often one’s flaws that makes us human, and thus beautiful. As you desperately try to hide your flaws, you also hide yourself. Singapore, isn’t it about time that you let us see the real you?
The next time someone talks to me about Singapore, I just wish they would talk about not just the concrete buildings or the super clean streets or the democracy that doesn’t seem to be, but something less superficial. Lets talk about the heart of Singapore, shall we?
extracted from Silenteloquence
2010년 5월 31일 월요일
다시 떠나고 싶다...
요세 스트레스 땜에 쇼핑을 많이 했어. 5월동안 전에 한국에 들어왔는데 왠지 다시 출국하고 싶어.
아까 친구한테 2년 전에 보냈던 이매일을 읽으면서 좋은 추억도 기억하고 그때 인생이 참 편하고 생각해. 역시 한참 일하고 있는 사람의 생각이 완전히 달라..
올해에 일본, 한국, 태만에 가려고 하는데 언제 갈 수 있는지 잘 몰라. 왜냐하면 지금 단 대에서 취직하고 있고 비행기표도 비싸니까 좀 기다려야 돼..
지난 토요일에 친구랑 벼룩시장을 참가했어. 넘넘 재미있을 뿐만아니라 친구랑 서로 얘기하는 것도 넘 좋았어. 돈도 벌고.. ㅋㅋㅋ. 근데 그날에 날씨 넘 무덥고 해빗도 심했어... 나의 피부도 까만졌어.. ㅠㅠㅠ. 하도 재미있어서 7월에 어차드에서 있는 벼룩시장을 다시 참가하려구.. ㅋㅋㅋ. 옷, 구두, 액세서리를 다 팔구.. ^^ ㅎ 옷장에 자리더 있고 새로운 옷을 살 수 있어! ^^
우리 '가계'
벼룩시장 끝난 후... 우리 피곤한 표정.. ㅋㅋ
아까 친구한테 2년 전에 보냈던 이매일을 읽으면서 좋은 추억도 기억하고 그때 인생이 참 편하고 생각해. 역시 한참 일하고 있는 사람의 생각이 완전히 달라..
올해에 일본, 한국, 태만에 가려고 하는데 언제 갈 수 있는지 잘 몰라. 왜냐하면 지금 단 대에서 취직하고 있고 비행기표도 비싸니까 좀 기다려야 돼..
지난 토요일에 친구랑 벼룩시장을 참가했어. 넘넘 재미있을 뿐만아니라 친구랑 서로 얘기하는 것도 넘 좋았어. 돈도 벌고.. ㅋㅋㅋ. 근데 그날에 날씨 넘 무덥고 해빗도 심했어... 나의 피부도 까만졌어.. ㅠㅠㅠ. 하도 재미있어서 7월에 어차드에서 있는 벼룩시장을 다시 참가하려구.. ㅋㅋㅋ. 옷, 구두, 액세서리를 다 팔구.. ^^ ㅎ 옷장에 자리더 있고 새로운 옷을 살 수 있어! ^^
우리 '가계'
벼룩시장 끝난 후... 우리 피곤한 표정.. ㅋㅋ
2010년 5월 22일 토요일
catharsis
its not that i'm weird
its just that i'm unique
its not that i'm crazed
its just that i love it
i'm pretty normal just like everyone else
its just that we like different things
so stop trying to judge based on what you see externally
but empathize and appreciate that everyone's a special being
its just that i'm unique
its not that i'm crazed
its just that i love it
i'm pretty normal just like everyone else
its just that we like different things
so stop trying to judge based on what you see externally
but empathize and appreciate that everyone's a special being
2010년 5월 21일 금요일
busy week ahead
its gonna be a very busy week ahead!
tues: CFA Derivatives Lecture
wed: Macquarie Warrants Seminar
thurs: gathering with ex-classmates
sat: hooked on flea #2 @ Homeclub
sun: 노래방 with kaye
when i'm free.. i'm really too free. and the opposite is true as well..
i dunno if i prefer working or schooling. with school, you get all the complications, angsty moods, emo ppl and exams. i can't say that i miss all of that, but i do miss the camaraderie that my JC class esp had.. i think JC life was the best out of all.
work life is gd cause i get to earn $$. but the lack of personal time is seriously bad. >_< even more so cause i'm in a***t. sigh.. i need to get out soon.
tues: CFA Derivatives Lecture
wed: Macquarie Warrants Seminar
thurs: gathering with ex-classmates
sat: hooked on flea #2 @ Homeclub
sun: 노래방 with kaye
when i'm free.. i'm really too free. and the opposite is true as well..
i dunno if i prefer working or schooling. with school, you get all the complications, angsty moods, emo ppl and exams. i can't say that i miss all of that, but i do miss the camaraderie that my JC class esp had.. i think JC life was the best out of all.
work life is gd cause i get to earn $$. but the lack of personal time is seriously bad. >_< even more so cause i'm in a***t. sigh.. i need to get out soon.
2010년 5월 10일 월요일
topik 고급
i was trying out the advanced level for TOPIK listening just out of curiosity & managed to get a score of 70 and above for the paper. though i wasn't able to fully understand everything, i was able to guess what they were saying for some of the questions. Since a score of 70 n above connotes a Level 6, i suppose that my listening is definitely above par. But trying to focus & understand the dialogue gave me a headache towards the very end.. haha.
However, my writing/reading still has a long way to go before i manage to catch up with my listening skills. i guess all those drama/variety show watching has paid off somewhat.
i need to improve my writing/reading!!!! any tips?
However, my writing/reading still has a long way to go before i manage to catch up with my listening skills. i guess all those drama/variety show watching has paid off somewhat.
i need to improve my writing/reading!!!! any tips?
2010년 5월 4일 화요일
2010년 5월 2일 일요일
검사 프린세스
최근의 에딕션! ㅋㅋㅋ. 생각보다 넘 재밌었어. 게다가 배우들이 영기가 좋고 뿐만 아니라 넘 멋있어! ㅎ. 특히 박시후! 진짜 대박이거던! ^^
아이리스에 김소연의 개랙터가 좀 더 진지하고 웃음이 별로 없은 사람이었어. 복한의 에이전이니까 감정을 신경해야 하고 말투도 신중해야 했어.
근데 검사 프린세스에 성격이 180도로 변했어! 이젠 우울하지 아니라 성격이 넘 발랄하고 웃음도 많아졌어. 역시 마혜리이다... 검사 프린세스가 점점 찌릿하니까 결과를 어떻게 돼든지 넘넘 궁금해! ㅋ
그리고.... 드라마에서 마혜리의 패션 센스가 넘 좋다! 하고 좋으니까 내가 퍼에버21에 $80 옷을 다 사버렸어! 기갑이 좀 아프지만.. 기분이 넘 좋다! ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
잘했어지! ㅋ
2010년 4월 18일 일요일
a lazy sunday afternoon & more
was a v nice & lazy sunday afternoon today! went abt my usual activities. n i got to explore Parco @ Millenia Walk as well as take the newly opened Circle Line!
according to this, it'll only take me 10 mins to reach Promenade from Paya Lebar station!
i'm quite sure that i'll be early for work tomorrow. hehe. esp since the Promenade station is right in front of Centennial Tower. hehehe.
i love the new Circle Line already. ^^ best of all, the distance in between transit stations isn't v long! in comparison with the North East Line (NEL). hehe. nice. ;) looks like i've to find another form of exercise.. n that's gonna come in the form of ice skating!! hehe. it shd be fun!
visited Parco @ Millenia Walk as well.. the 1st 2 levels seemed pretty quiet, but the 3rd was a buzz & hype of activity! families were lining up for lunch at the various japanese eateries. it seemed a tad pricey to me though.
the queue outside Saboten
price for a tonkatsu!
prices @ Saboten were definitely higher than that of Seoul. i wonder why.. maybe its because it costs more to fly the ingredients over to Singapore as opposed to Korea? :P that aside, there seemed to be many patrons in the restaurant.. Singaporeans are an affluent lot indeed.
MPH was having a 30% discount storewide!
would have bought a book there, if not for the fact that they only carried the hardcover version. >_< the difference in price btw the soft & hard cover is $12. n it would be more practical & cheaper to purchase the softcover version. oh well. i shall wait for Kinokuniya's storewide 20% discount. hehe.
passed by this interesting exhibition @ Marina Square on my way to church. Apparently it was a design competition for Google. The shortlisted participants' artwork for each age category were displayed on the boards & passer-bys could vote for the design they liked the best in each category. i got a free google sticker for voting! :) some of these kids can really draw! even those 4-7 year olds. i don't think i can even replicate their work. no matter how hard i try. yeah, i'm hopeless at drawing. i can't draw to save my life! hahaa. that's y, u should never play 'Win Lose or Draw' with me. you're sure to lose. haha.
according to this, it'll only take me 10 mins to reach Promenade from Paya Lebar station!
i'm quite sure that i'll be early for work tomorrow. hehe. esp since the Promenade station is right in front of Centennial Tower. hehehe.
i love the new Circle Line already. ^^ best of all, the distance in between transit stations isn't v long! in comparison with the North East Line (NEL). hehe. nice. ;) looks like i've to find another form of exercise.. n that's gonna come in the form of ice skating!! hehe. it shd be fun!
visited Parco @ Millenia Walk as well.. the 1st 2 levels seemed pretty quiet, but the 3rd was a buzz & hype of activity! families were lining up for lunch at the various japanese eateries. it seemed a tad pricey to me though.
the queue outside Saboten
price for a tonkatsu!
prices @ Saboten were definitely higher than that of Seoul. i wonder why.. maybe its because it costs more to fly the ingredients over to Singapore as opposed to Korea? :P that aside, there seemed to be many patrons in the restaurant.. Singaporeans are an affluent lot indeed.
MPH was having a 30% discount storewide!
would have bought a book there, if not for the fact that they only carried the hardcover version. >_< the difference in price btw the soft & hard cover is $12. n it would be more practical & cheaper to purchase the softcover version. oh well. i shall wait for Kinokuniya's storewide 20% discount. hehe.
passed by this interesting exhibition @ Marina Square on my way to church. Apparently it was a design competition for Google. The shortlisted participants' artwork for each age category were displayed on the boards & passer-bys could vote for the design they liked the best in each category. i got a free google sticker for voting! :) some of these kids can really draw! even those 4-7 year olds. i don't think i can even replicate their work. no matter how hard i try. yeah, i'm hopeless at drawing. i can't draw to save my life! hahaa. that's y, u should never play 'Win Lose or Draw' with me. you're sure to lose. haha.
2010년 4월 12일 월요일
yet another audit joke
i'm sure all u auditors out there have received this email at some point in yr audit career.
for the uninitiated, here's a peek into audit life.
Enjoy.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Your alarm rings, signalling another brand new day. You get up, looking
forward for another new day of challenge, another new day to learn.
After washing up, you put on your office outfit, giving you that
professional look, one that you believe many out there envy. Breakfast
follows (perhaps), and you head off to your office. You're one of the
earliest to arrive, ahead of all your superior and when they come in
later, they greet you and you feel all charged up for another productive
day. Plenty to do and learn and hence, you are prepared to stay back
late to do all that is necessary.
If you're currently doing a degree in finance, accounting or law, the
above is probably what you've been waiting for all these years. You work
your ass off (well... most of you) in university because it's your dream
to join one of those big glamorous firms out there in the market.
Lawyers and accountants are the usual suspects for this curse. Once
graduated, all of them will run like headless chicken towards those big
firms. If you're an accounting student... you want to be an auditor in
one of the Big-4 right?
Well, if you do make it, it's like a dream come true. In such firms, you
get a personal computer, maybe a notebook (wow!). All your stationeries
are free, and it's also the first time you step into a 'pantry', where
you can make your own coffee, just like those nice offices in TVB
series. Next, you get an exclusive e-mail, the domain after your name is
not the ordinary @ gmail.com or @hotmail.com
or @ yahoo.com ... No, it's
not, it's your-name@a-big-and-glamorous-firm.com
. You can't wait to tell
that to your friend.
Then comes the feeling of giving a business card with your name on it,
and it's not any other business card, it's one with your name on it,
it's one that signifies you're an employee with
a-big-and-glamorous-firm. And... the word below your name is not a lowly
"accounts executive"... the word below your name is exclusive... the
word below your name is... "Associate". And when your friend gives you
the "Wow, you're an associate with this firm?"... you get into instant
orgasm.
3 or 6 months into your job, you will then be experiencing the euphoria
of saying... I-am-very-busy... I-have-a-lot-work...
I-worked-till-very-late-last-night...
I-can't-make-it-for-the-gathering-cos-I-have-to-work-this-weekend. Yeah,
it's an euphoria because to you, it's a privilege to be busy, it's very
cool to work late, you're very proud to work in during weekends. When
you utter such words, a sense of arrogance and pride radiates from you.
You feel great because working so hard means you learnt a lot of things,
those not in the professional industry somehow looks lowly to you. You
feel big, you feel you're a level smarter than them .Reality will tend
to sink in within 2 years or so, though the duration seems to be getting
shorter and shorter now with the younger generation.
First, you will probably ask yourself, how come a graduate like you must
do all sorts of donkey jobs such as photocopying, checking invoices,
going through pile and pile of documents and filing. You will also be
wondering how come your superior whom you once looked up to have to suck
up to clients. Oh yeah... most all clients are unreasonable.
If you're an accountant, you will probably realise that there is no such
thing called a 'balance' sheet. It's balanced because you did the
balancing act so that your big boss can sign on it and certify it as
'true and fair'.
Yeah... signing on accounts, the job that you once dreamed of... isn't
exactly all a bed of roses. You then realise that you will probably
never reach that "just-need-to-sign-only stage" but hey... it's ok, you
probably hate that job by now. When you tell your client something,
chances are you are just as blur and confuse as them. But you have to
act as though you're an expert because you're the con-sul-tant. This is
just a glimpse of it.
Now, all the late nights and irregular meals will probably caused you to
age 8 years in 2 years. Those I-am-very-busy... I-have-a-lot-work...
I-worked-till-very-late-last-night...
I-can't-make-it-for-the-gathering-cos-I-have-to-work-this-weekend will
take its toll on your body and it will show. You will probably look very
skinny... or very far... you will certainly look old and worn out.
Working late and spending weekends in the office is no longer a cool
thing but absolute stupidity. But hey... you will still have to do it,
because there's still much work to be done.
By now, all your friends who ended up as salesmen or doing other thing
except being a professional, those whom you felt superior to are driving
anything but a proton. But for you, it's time to think whether you
should buy a proton cause your perodua is beginning to give you problem.
Of course, if your father is well-connected fella, things can be
different.
But if you're not, tough luck. You'll be wondering how come you're
generally under-paid. Those exposure and learning curve that you once
craved are no longer relevant. You want to make more money. But unless
you're a partner of the glamorous firm, money can be a lil tough to come
by.
At this point of time, probably after 3, 4 or 5 years, you finally
realised that document you signed when you first joined the glamorous
firm was nothing but lies. Then, you decide to ply your trade in the
commercial world, you leave those glamorous firm. You think joining a
commercial firm will bring about a good change, not knowing that such
move means you switched from being a 'profit centre' to a 'cost centre'.
One of the main effect of the switch is that you will be working doubly
hard compared to the profit centre, which probably includes a lot of
late nights too... but your salary and bonus is much lower compared to
profit centre. What does this mean... a story for another time.
One thing for sure... your morning will now be something like...
Your alarm rings, signalling another day... another weekday. You get up,
after snoozing the alarm a million and one times. You hope today is
Friday, but it's not, and you feel like shit. You think of a million and
one reasons to take MC, but you realised you have to go to office
because you failed to finish the report due today though you stayed till
10pm last night. You tell yourself you need to change job, just like how
you have been telling yourself in the last 1 year. Once in office,
you're in a dilemma cause you want time to go slower so that you can
finish your work but yet, you want time to go faster so that you can
leave the office and go for lunch.
During lunch, you will b**** with your colleagues about work and
probably the bosses. You will all talk about so many people who seem to
be doing so well except for you. You realised you should have done
something else while in university. You realised you may have made a
mistake in life... a mistake in being a professional... you have made...
a professional mistake.
for the uninitiated, here's a peek into audit life.
Enjoy.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Your alarm rings, signalling another brand new day. You get up, looking
forward for another new day of challenge, another new day to learn.
After washing up, you put on your office outfit, giving you that
professional look, one that you believe many out there envy. Breakfast
follows (perhaps), and you head off to your office. You're one of the
earliest to arrive, ahead of all your superior and when they come in
later, they greet you and you feel all charged up for another productive
day. Plenty to do and learn and hence, you are prepared to stay back
late to do all that is necessary.
If you're currently doing a degree in finance, accounting or law, the
above is probably what you've been waiting for all these years. You work
your ass off (well... most of you) in university because it's your dream
to join one of those big glamorous firms out there in the market.
Lawyers and accountants are the usual suspects for this curse. Once
graduated, all of them will run like headless chicken towards those big
firms. If you're an accounting student... you want to be an auditor in
one of the Big-4 right?
Well, if you do make it, it's like a dream come true. In such firms, you
get a personal computer, maybe a notebook (wow!). All your stationeries
are free, and it's also the first time you step into a 'pantry', where
you can make your own coffee, just like those nice offices in TVB
series. Next, you get an exclusive e-mail, the domain after your name is
not the ordinary @ gmail.com or @hotmail.com
or @ yahoo.com ... No, it's
not, it's your-name@a-big-and-glamorous-firm.com
. You can't wait to tell
that to your friend.
Then comes the feeling of giving a business card with your name on it,
and it's not any other business card, it's one with your name on it,
it's one that signifies you're an employee with
a-big-and-glamorous-firm. And... the word below your name is not a lowly
"accounts executive"... the word below your name is exclusive... the
word below your name is... "Associate". And when your friend gives you
the "Wow, you're an associate with this firm?"... you get into instant
orgasm.
3 or 6 months into your job, you will then be experiencing the euphoria
of saying... I-am-very-busy... I-have-a-lot-work...
I-worked-till-very-late-last-night...
I-can't-make-it-for-the-gathering-cos-I-have-to-work-this-weekend. Yeah,
it's an euphoria because to you, it's a privilege to be busy, it's very
cool to work late, you're very proud to work in during weekends. When
you utter such words, a sense of arrogance and pride radiates from you.
You feel great because working so hard means you learnt a lot of things,
those not in the professional industry somehow looks lowly to you. You
feel big, you feel you're a level smarter than them .Reality will tend
to sink in within 2 years or so, though the duration seems to be getting
shorter and shorter now with the younger generation.
First, you will probably ask yourself, how come a graduate like you must
do all sorts of donkey jobs such as photocopying, checking invoices,
going through pile and pile of documents and filing. You will also be
wondering how come your superior whom you once looked up to have to suck
up to clients. Oh yeah... most all clients are unreasonable.
If you're an accountant, you will probably realise that there is no such
thing called a 'balance' sheet. It's balanced because you did the
balancing act so that your big boss can sign on it and certify it as
'true and fair'.
Yeah... signing on accounts, the job that you once dreamed of... isn't
exactly all a bed of roses. You then realise that you will probably
never reach that "just-need-to-sign-only stage" but hey... it's ok, you
probably hate that job by now. When you tell your client something,
chances are you are just as blur and confuse as them. But you have to
act as though you're an expert because you're the con-sul-tant. This is
just a glimpse of it.
Now, all the late nights and irregular meals will probably caused you to
age 8 years in 2 years. Those I-am-very-busy... I-have-a-lot-work...
I-worked-till-very-late-last-night...
I-can't-make-it-for-the-gathering-cos-I-have-to-work-this-weekend will
take its toll on your body and it will show. You will probably look very
skinny... or very far... you will certainly look old and worn out.
Working late and spending weekends in the office is no longer a cool
thing but absolute stupidity. But hey... you will still have to do it,
because there's still much work to be done.
By now, all your friends who ended up as salesmen or doing other thing
except being a professional, those whom you felt superior to are driving
anything but a proton. But for you, it's time to think whether you
should buy a proton cause your perodua is beginning to give you problem.
Of course, if your father is well-connected fella, things can be
different.
But if you're not, tough luck. You'll be wondering how come you're
generally under-paid. Those exposure and learning curve that you once
craved are no longer relevant. You want to make more money. But unless
you're a partner of the glamorous firm, money can be a lil tough to come
by.
At this point of time, probably after 3, 4 or 5 years, you finally
realised that document you signed when you first joined the glamorous
firm was nothing but lies. Then, you decide to ply your trade in the
commercial world, you leave those glamorous firm. You think joining a
commercial firm will bring about a good change, not knowing that such
move means you switched from being a 'profit centre' to a 'cost centre'.
One of the main effect of the switch is that you will be working doubly
hard compared to the profit centre, which probably includes a lot of
late nights too... but your salary and bonus is much lower compared to
profit centre. What does this mean... a story for another time.
One thing for sure... your morning will now be something like...
Your alarm rings, signalling another day... another weekday. You get up,
after snoozing the alarm a million and one times. You hope today is
Friday, but it's not, and you feel like shit. You think of a million and
one reasons to take MC, but you realised you have to go to office
because you failed to finish the report due today though you stayed till
10pm last night. You tell yourself you need to change job, just like how
you have been telling yourself in the last 1 year. Once in office,
you're in a dilemma cause you want time to go slower so that you can
finish your work but yet, you want time to go faster so that you can
leave the office and go for lunch.
During lunch, you will b**** with your colleagues about work and
probably the bosses. You will all talk about so many people who seem to
be doing so well except for you. You realised you should have done
something else while in university. You realised you may have made a
mistake in life... a mistake in being a professional... you have made...
a professional mistake.
2010년 4월 10일 토요일
spring cleaning
this organiser from Target would be pretty cool to have in my room! as u guys all know, i'm not exactly the neatest person on earth. my room somewhat resembles an earthquake disaster zone right now. books, papers & knickknacks are covering my work desk with less than an inch to spare. i'm sure anyone who's been to my room can attest to that. even if i clean up my room, it's gonna return to its old state in less than 3 days. i guess i just don't have a knack for tidiness.
speaking of spring cleaning, i guess i should do it pretty soon. seeing as how its spring. hahaha.
i need to clear out my wardrobe, which isn't gonna be an easy task. but clear out i must! but being the big procrastinator i am, i wonder when i'll get it done. next year at best? hah...
2010년 4월 9일 금요일
팝콘 노래방 - 짱이다!
팝콘 노래방
popcorn norebang beats all the other norebangs hands down! the interior was pretty clean & they had all the latest songs! (4월까지!) 맘 넘 들어.. ㅎㅎㅎ. 방도 크고 깨끗하고 위치도 넘 좋더라고.. 내가 보기에는 이 노래방이 인기가 넘 많을 걸 같에...
문이 몇 칠 전에 방금 열어서 거기에 가면 팝콘이 공짜하고 1시간 - 30달러이거던! 다른 대 비교하면 넘 싸!
누가 관심이 있어? 우리 거기서 모임하자!! 어때? ㅎㅎㅎ.
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